April 30, 2009 Ava enjoyed a trip to see our pals at Blodgett. The girls had time to ohhhh and ahhhh over her while mommy enjoyed some adult conver-sation. Friends in these photos include Holly Holstein, Erin Zimmer, Stephanie Boness, & the "Baby Whisperer" Judy Greko. Thanks for the visit girls! We will be keeping in touch as always. Ava had lots of fun putting faces to the voices she heard in-utero. If my Tweets could talk I know she would say, "Thank you for your prayers, hugs, and kisses!"
April 30, 2009 Wondering how Miss Ava is doing with her sleep? Great! Last night Tweets was finally ready to be tucked into bed at 2:30am with a full belly and clean jammies. Okay night... morning.. it's all the same in newborn time... Then she slept "like a baby" until 8:30am! Thank you God! We needed that six hour stretch of sleep sweet sleep. All I can say is that on a night like that you feel like God has blessed you with the best baby ever. Now don't hate us just yet. This sleep pattern is not a consistant thing... Normally, we only get three to four hour naps in during the night. So this was a real treat!
We had a great day of lounging around the house... I did work on the current goals I posted but finished none of them... Ava hasn't noticed any change in her mommy's smell yet... Maybe Maple Suryp for breakfast? Since it was a rainy day we didn't get our stroller ride in... Maybe tomorrow. Instead, we listened to Elise music and read books. Ava is having more alert times during the day and it is so fun chatting with her. I am building up her verbal skills so she will be able to keep up socially with Jack, Emma, and Sylvia!!! The thank you notes are underway but are a far cry from being done. It will all get finished in time. Rome wasn't built in a day... Right?
Our neighbors, The Killebrews, brought us the best lasongna dinner ever! Thanks Jaime. I think after dinner (round two) we might have five bites left over. I will be needing the recipe. Delicious. We ate so much it was nuts. With our bellies stuffed to the brim, Ava and I, drifted back to dream land and enjoyed a three hour slumber. There is nothing better than taking a nap with your newborn snuggled in on your belly... Life at Home Sweet Kolkman is perfect or better. We are savoring all of these momets. Especially, sleep sweet sleep!
April 29, 2009 Sighhhhhh. Finally, two weeks out, Rob and I have a much needed and long awaited family moment with Elise and Ava in the cemetery. I had several dreams while I was carrying Ava in my belly on how this moment was going to be. A moment of sorrow, tenderness, joy, relief, happiness, emptiness, excitement... the list of feelings go on and on. But like some things at Home Sweet Kolkman... dreams don't always go to plan.
In my mind, before Rob and I delivered Ava, it was my thought that we would stop at the cemetery on the way home from the hospital... Having a springtime baby was surly going to allow this to happen in the weather department... How could we possibly bring our second daughter home without stopping to spend some time with our first? But little did I know this dream and thought were just not destine to be the case for "Our Rainbow Connection."
Somewhere between family and friends pouring into our home to meet Ava, well wishing us as a family, celebrating the triumphant joy of our bringing Ava into the world safe and sound, caring for Ava's needs, and adjusting to our new lives and journey ahead... All bets became off on any real time lines for our girls getting to know each other better. So I decided that dreams are really more like guidelines. Whether Rob, Elise, Ava, and I had our quiet moment in the cemetery before or after coming home from the hospital became neither here nor there for me... However, I did want this first moment in the cemetery to be spent together as a family. After all... I have learned over the past 18 1/2 months that families are forever. Besides, my girls already know each other from all of the time they spent together in the waters in-utero. Rob and I were pleased with how the first moment went... We have come so far... and our journey is truly just beginning. With love and tears for Elise & Ava... our daughters have officially experienced "The Rainbow Connection!"
April 29, 2009 Ava had a great well child check at ABC Pediatrics with her pedi-atrician, Dr. Hoogstra. We are officially 2 weeks old! Our little birdie now tips the scale at 7 lbs & 3 ozs and is 19 3/4 inches long. Dr. Hoogstra was impressed our little girl has already surpassed her birth weight of 6 lbs and 14 ozs... Rob and I are not surprised...what can we say except our Tweets is a known overachiever!
We talked about breastfeeding and what I can do to increase supply beyond the usual things moms do to maintain their dairy farm. To catch you put to speed.. Ava is ahead of me in the game of supply and demand.. So she has been getting two 4oz bottles of formula to supplement her hunger pains daily. It is my goal to get her off her formula feeds and to keep her belly full on my own. He suggested I try to take a herbal supplement that naturally increases milk supply as your baby becomes more and more hungry. It is made by Motherlove and is called Fenugreek Seed. The only downfall to taking this herb is that you start to smell like Maple Syurp. Hot Damn Ava... Momma's gonna smell like yummy pancakes and french toast! I don't think I will mind smelling like the Cracker Barrel... Will I? Only time will tell... But I guess that if Ava and the dairy are in sync who cares. My Little Salt Lick is sure going to love the new and improved Mommy!
April 29, 2009 Pondering my thoughts about the lyrics to the DeriusRucker song, "It won't be like this for long," as Miss Ava takes her sweet time finishing her 4:30am feeding. I do love this time with her in the weeeee-weeeee hours of the morning. However, wishing for a little speed can't be a horrible thing for her sleepy mother to want... Right? Please don't misunderstand my tired plee... I don't wish her to grow up over night... who am I kidding.. I don't wish her to grow up ... AT ALL! But momma is pooped and we have a big day of appointments awaiting us just around the hour-hand... When will she understand the phrase, "Hustle Ava!...?"
April 28, 2009 "Somewhere over the rainbow bluebirds fly and dreams that you dare to dream really do come true.." With the help of Rob's sister, Ann, I am now able to keep connected with my family & friends. From Michigan to Switzerland and back again! Please... JOURNEY on with us at Home Sweet Kolkman. Goodbye for now, to my soon to be faithful readers!
April 28, 2009 Trying to set up this blog site is harder than it looks... I am taking a break until Rob's sister, Ann, who is a real wiz-bang at this computer stuff can help me out... So until further notice we are on hold at Home Sweet Kolkman...
Mom... I need a break from all of your stories. Shhhhhhh... I'm trying to sleep.
Ava's 2 Weeks Old!
Check me out.
Ava's 1 Week Old!
Ava's Birthday 04/15/2009!
I made it safe and sound. Tweet-Tweet!
Ava Elise Kolkman
April 27, 2009 Ava had professional photos taken at our nest... Rob and I had this set up for Elise but were never given the chance to experience this joy with her. So this event was bitter sweet at Home Sweet Kolkman. The beautiful dress that Ava is wearing was given to Elise in the hospital but she never had the chance to wear it. Ava looked beautiful in her big sister's gown. I am glad she was able to have her photos taken in something of Elise's... which is not always easy for us to do. With love and tears... Rob and I will keep our daughters connected in all of the ways we can. Tweet-Tweet... Our second daughter, Ava, is a wonderful addition to our family. We are so blessed to have her in our lives.
Ava & Levi meet!
04/26/09 Elise & Annika are so proud of our smiles...
Elise Renee Kolkman
10/13/2007... Forever in Our Hearts
To Elise on Mothers Day
A Mother's Day Gift From God-
Lord today is Mother's Day,
but my heart is split in two.
Half of my heart is still here,
the other with Elise, who is there with you.
All the lovely presents are a nice surprise.
But the only thing I want most is missing,
and tears fill up my eyes.
I know when you sent her Lord,
You didn't promise how long she would stay.
All you said was to love her and treasure each and every day.
But Lord it crushed my heart,
when you called for her return.
I really feel like half a Mom, as I ache, weep, and yearn.
But Lord Please tell Elise that I Love her
just as much as I did before.
And could you please make a window,
so she can see through heaven's floor?
Let her see that she is missed and thought of with every breath.
And that a Mother's love begins before life,
and does not end with death.
So on this Mother's Day,
She's the Greatest Gift I Give To You.
For Lord I know you missed her,
and you Love her too.
From Elise on Mothers Day
Dear Mr. Hallmark,
I am writing to you from heaven, and though it must appear a rather strange idea, I see everything from here.
I just popped in to visit your stores to find a card. A card of love for my mommy as this day for her is hard.
There must be some mistake I thought. I saw every card you could imagine. Except I could not find a card from a child who lives in heaven.
She is still a mother too, no matter where I reside. I had to leave, she understands, but oh the tears she's cried.
I thought that if I wrote you, that you would come to know... That though I live in heaven now, I still love my mommy so.
She talks with me, and dreams with me, we still share laughter too. Memories are our way of speaking now, would you see what you could do?
My mother carries me in her heart, her tears she hides from sight. She writes songs to honor me, sometimes far into the night.
She plants a tree in my garden, there my living memory dwells. She talks to other grieving parents, trying to ease their pain as well.
So you see Mr. Hallmark, though I no longer live on earth I must find a way, to remind her of her wonderous worth.
She needs to be honored, and remembered too... Just as the children on earth will do.
Thank you Mr. Hallmark. I know you'll do your best. I have done all I can do... to you I'll leave the rest.
Find a way to tell her, how much she means to me. Until I can do it for myself, when she joins me in eternity.
Adapted from the I-Village.com website