I am slowly learning my new sewing machine and have taken a handful of classes to learn the basics. I wish I had learned from my mom when I was much younger and had more time on my hands. But it's never to late for learning so here I am embracing my newest hobby class by class. I come from a long line of women in my family who are wonderful sewers and can do just about anything with the machine. I am hoping that Ava will enjoy this hobby as much as I do and if I am a natural maybe I can teach her a thing or two before she is in her thirties! She has discovered lace and trace and she seems to be having fun with it. Although, she has told me a few times, "This is very hard for me mommy." I guess if the love of sewing doesn't bloom than at least her fine motor skills will!
My Little Seamstress...
I love that she can be such a clown! I wish she could be two forever...
Mom... I need a break from all of your stories. Shhhhhhh... I'm trying to sleep.
Ava's 2 Weeks Old!
Check me out.
Ava's 1 Week Old!
Ava's Birthday 04/15/2009!
I made it safe and sound. Tweet-Tweet!
Ava Elise Kolkman
April 27, 2009 Ava had professional photos taken at our nest... Rob and I had this set up for Elise but were never given the chance to experience this joy with her. So this event was bitter sweet at Home Sweet Kolkman. The beautiful dress that Ava is wearing was given to Elise in the hospital but she never had the chance to wear it. Ava looked beautiful in her big sister's gown. I am glad she was able to have her photos taken in something of Elise's... which is not always easy for us to do. With love and tears... Rob and I will keep our daughters connected in all of the ways we can. Tweet-Tweet... Our second daughter, Ava, is a wonderful addition to our family. We are so blessed to have her in our lives.
Ava & Levi meet!
04/26/09 Elise & Annika are so proud of our smiles...
Elise Renee Kolkman
10/13/2007... Forever in Our Hearts
To Elise on Mothers Day
A Mother's Day Gift From God-
Lord today is Mother's Day,
but my heart is split in two.
Half of my heart is still here,
the other with Elise, who is there with you.
All the lovely presents are a nice surprise.
But the only thing I want most is missing,
and tears fill up my eyes.
I know when you sent her Lord,
You didn't promise how long she would stay.
All you said was to love her and treasure each and every day.
But Lord it crushed my heart,
when you called for her return.
I really feel like half a Mom, as I ache, weep, and yearn.
But Lord Please tell Elise that I Love her
just as much as I did before.
And could you please make a window,
so she can see through heaven's floor?
Let her see that she is missed and thought of with every breath.
And that a Mother's love begins before life,
and does not end with death.
So on this Mother's Day,
She's the Greatest Gift I Give To You.
For Lord I know you missed her,
and you Love her too.
From Elise on Mothers Day
Dear Mr. Hallmark,
I am writing to you from heaven, and though it must appear a rather strange idea, I see everything from here.
I just popped in to visit your stores to find a card. A card of love for my mommy as this day for her is hard.
There must be some mistake I thought. I saw every card you could imagine. Except I could not find a card from a child who lives in heaven.
She is still a mother too, no matter where I reside. I had to leave, she understands, but oh the tears she's cried.
I thought that if I wrote you, that you would come to know... That though I live in heaven now, I still love my mommy so.
She talks with me, and dreams with me, we still share laughter too. Memories are our way of speaking now, would you see what you could do?
My mother carries me in her heart, her tears she hides from sight. She writes songs to honor me, sometimes far into the night.
She plants a tree in my garden, there my living memory dwells. She talks to other grieving parents, trying to ease their pain as well.
So you see Mr. Hallmark, though I no longer live on earth I must find a way, to remind her of her wonderous worth.
She needs to be honored, and remembered too... Just as the children on earth will do.
Thank you Mr. Hallmark. I know you'll do your best. I have done all I can do... to you I'll leave the rest.
Find a way to tell her, how much she means to me. Until I can do it for myself, when she joins me in eternity.
Adapted from the I-Village.com website